Slice of (my) Life

Why Should You NOT Play Normal Games In LOLPH


So for those of you who don’t know this, I’m a gamer. I don’t think I game enough to be considered “hardcore” (since gaming is not allowed using the dorm internet,) but I take the game seriously enough to not be called a “casual”.

I’m currently playing Dark Souls II (twinblades are awesome) but I play MOBA’s by preference. Specifically, League of Legends. Specifically, the Philippine server.

Now my country has not had the greatest track record in the international community (not talking about games yet here). We get butthurt real easily, we take pride in the wrong things and generally act retarded for the most part. So it should really be no surprise that in gaming, we’re twice as bad.

Context on my part: Since I avoid ranked like the plague and generally game by myself, I often find myself either in Solo Queue or Team Builder. While I thank Riot Games for that wondrous addition to the game, the fact is that it takes me about 20 minutes to find a team, another 20 to have a completed team, and finally another 20 to actually find a match, that thanks is rather diminished. So for the sake of brevity, I go to solo queue- normal.

Which is possibly the worst thing you can do in LoLPH.

Here are a few reasons why.


1. People have no idea how roles work.

I had a game where I was Quinn, and for some reason, I had a Darius with in bottom lane. He ended up being kited by the enemy team while I had to sneak around… because the bastard kept ulting the people I was whittling down, denying me a full kill streak (and gold.)

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While I understand that carries are not limited to ADR’s (attack damage ranged for those of you who don’t know) it seems rather stupid to get all the kills when you can be kited like a Shen with no boots chasing Ashe through the jungle. It just won’t happen. People here seem to fail to realize that there are some characters that need kills in order to scale late game, and their job is to walk in, cause as much fuckery as possible while said character takes potshots at the enemy team (in particular, I love ulting the enemy team with the reworked Sion and just totally wrecking shit.) In my example above, what happened was a Darius that kept getting slowed by an enemy Zilean, and had the audacity to run back to me… carrying a time bomb.

2. In general, Murphy’s Law applies to ALL potential teamfights.

I have yet to play a normal game where a clash went off without a hitch. Someone, somewhere, will miss their Stranglethorns, shoot an Enchanted Crystal Arrow at Yasuo’s Wind Wall, or more recently, will miss Sion’s ult, resulting in a hilarious (yet ultimately disadvantageous) fail.

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Alright, so clashes are generally the biggest clusterfuck you can find in League. Spells everywhere, everyone going berserk and you have no idea where your character is with all the fancy particle effects (I’m looking at you, Pulsefire Ezreal,) but in general, there should be a law that mandates a two to three minute discussion with your team whether or not Garen should run in the Baron pit while the enemy is there trying to kill it as Anivia casts her ult. If it can go wrong, at least it can be prepared for. If it does go wrong, no great loss. What we have is merely a failure to communicate- or at least to communicate coherently.

3. People are astonishingly careless/Research, research, research.

My last game before writing this article was with an Azir had no idea if he scaled off ability power or attack damage and didn’t tell us. He then ended up using attack damage runes and masteries, building a Bloodthirster with Trinity Force. Needless to say, he died swiftly while wondering “Why aren’t my soldiers doing damage?”

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I get it. Either you got a call, your kitten ran across your keyboard or you momentarily got displaced in time and replaced with a stupider version of yourself- you make mistakes. I myself had a memorable game where I ended up using ability power runes and masteries on Darius top. However, the essence of any MOBA is to adapt accordingly towards situations like that. In my case, I ended up building pure tank for Darius with no damage items whatsoever- we ended up winning, not without a bit of effort. In cases such as the Azir above though, it’s a different case. Do not, I repeat, do not play a game with other people when you have no idea what you are doing. Some people like to play for the sake of playing- some people, like me, play because we want to win. You will be a giant weight on the entire team if you do not adapt to that mistake accordingly, and will most likely get reported.

4. Bots don’t exist here.

Or at least, training in the sense. For some reason, like the Azir case above, people will play normal or ranked games with characters they have no idea how to use.

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Do I really need to explain it? The bots are there for a reason, people! At least have the decency to try your skillshots against training dummies rather than an enemy team and put your entire team behind for feeding. Apologizing will not destroy their nexus or will keep ours intact. In my case, whenever there’s a champion I’ve never played before and wish to try, I often just play a game by myself, getting the hang of how the skills work and how effective they are. Usually not even against bots- but I make it a point to stay away from human opponents until I at least have a semblance of being adept at the skill order of my champion.

5. People are generally stupid.

This is probably numbers 1-4 in a nutshell. We have players who can’t land a Blitzcrank pull to save their lives, Garens that will always run in the middly of the enemy team while everyone’s at base, Singeds who will Fling a Rammus into our team, Sivirs who will insist on getting blue buff instead of defending the inhibitor turret, Shens that taunt the AP caster and not the AD carry, and people who have no idea that stunning Katarina in the middle of her ult will stop it.

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Mistakes will be made, and we will cry and rage about it. However, in PH, it’s mostly just mistakes. It seems like the vast majority of players here have no idea how to play, and when called out, will only play worse. They seem to lack the ability to reason out the most basic of tactics (such as facechecking the brush when they’re playing Zyra) cannot seem to follow simple instructions (please for the love of God Charm Vayne, not the Leona, Ahri!) and generally, seem to do more harm than good (cue the Hecarim who shows up at the end of the clash and immediately gets focused to death). Other people learn from their mistakes- most Filipinos seem to be hell-bent on making them again and again.

There are a hundred more things I’d like to say about Solo Queuing here in the Philippine server ( actually, League Of Legends in the Philippines in particular,) but I’ll leave them for next time. Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m off to make breakfast while waiting for Team Builder to find me a group. Shouldn’t be long now, I’m currently at 22 minutes and 14 seconds in queue. Good riddance.


Journal Entries

It’s been a while.

Since I really don’t have social networking anymore, I decided to reactivate my blog and write here. It’s cute, to be honest- but again, even as the silence (finally) surrounds me here in the dormitories, I find myself with nothing to say. Perhaps it’s the exhaustion from crashing my friend’s place so many times and staying up too much, but I feel exceptionally tired, especially that my academic work is (for the moment) over.

Thinking, thinking. Thinking about grades and people and things I have to do… my goodness.

Although interestingly, being on break has given me a sobering realization as to how easy it is to waste time. The rather disturbing question that I’d want to ask myself and am rather afraid to hear the answer to is how much time had I wasted before that realization?

I shudder to think about it.

Gotta keep it together…

So I’m back~

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Slice of (my) Life

This might not work.

I’m just saying, that’s what it feels like right now.

I’m gifted, somewhat- I know things, things that you don’t tell me. And for some reason, what I know isn’t something I like.

You’re always busy. Bustling around, laughing, smiling, talking, to all these other people. Something that I can never fully do- at least the way you do it.

You remind me of myself, somewhat. We’re both a little crazy, both a little unusual in our way of thinking. I wish that I knew what else we have in common. I wish I knew what else can we agree and disagree on. I wish… I knew you more.

But perhaps I never will. For some reason, though you smile and laugh with me, your gaze is always somewhere ahead- somewhere that I can’t see. Somewhere I think, it would be difficult for me to follow.

To be honest, I didn’t plan this. I didn’t plan you. But you came along, in the most different of fashions, in the most interesting of ways. Most girls are really something. You, however, are something else. Something I can’t quite put my finger on- and that’s unusual.

Perhaps I’m overthinking this. Most likely. I haven’t told you that I like you, after all. All we have between us is a tenuous promise that I think would most likely never come true. I think I have to do more in this- and that is what terrifies me. Things are different now, of course- and how will I go about this, how to approach you would be far different- but still, the remnants of who I was before cling like a tattered cloak I try to remove.

Despite me saying that this is an annoyance, an aggravation… I’m thankful that it happened. Sometime the best lessons in life is when something proves us wrong- painful, irritating, but effective. At least I know that this part of me is real, and not something that came from my imaginings.

This might not work.

But I’m putting my all into the hopes that it would.

Slice of (my) Life

What about us?

We are the people who sit at the few chairs in that crowded room.

We are the people who find what’s inside those shot glasses a little weird, or think that beer is too bitter.

We are the people who help random strangers when they throw up because really, that’s the only way we can get involved.

We are the people who when dancing, just really jump up and down and randomly wave our hands in the air, but only for a few seconds.

We are the people who “disappear” from the party for a few minutes, but that’s only because we really, really need some “air” and end up staying outside the doors for ten minutes.

We are the non-party people: the people who as much as they like people, or trying to like people, or liking get-togethers… don’t like parties.

Which is why, when we get invited (and on the rare occasion go) to a party: it always ends up something along these lines:

We get there. We greet the people that know us and laugh with them when they say lines such as “oh my, you actually came!”, “let’s get you drunk!”. We awkwardly stand in the corner or sit at a table or you end up dragging us along with you introducing us to person after person: names we actually ALREADY know, but we know perfectly well, we’re just not going to get along. and that’s the reason why we never spoke to them.

However, we don’t want to drag you down, so we tell you (somewhere between your third glass of alcohol and half a shot glass of ours) that you should go on, enjoy the party. We’ll make our own friends, we say, smiling as we push you to the center of the room and give you a small wave.

But it’s just so hard. The alcohol. The music. The few people we know know people better than we do- they flock together and we end up doing some quiet thing like petting your cat or walking in the garden, or (and this is the best case scenario) stick to one person we know (which is most likely feeling the same way as we do.)

And what about you? You give us sneaking looks at times;  drop in on us, asking how we are, waving, smiling. But as the night goes on and the alcohol gets to you, you end up laughing with the group you’re most comfortable with (and we know this because you talk really loudly at this point) that you kind of feel sorry that you forced us to go, since apparently it is “not our thing to party.”

You end up apologizing the next day, we smile, say that it was “chalking it up to experience” or “maybe my mind will change about these things one day” , we go our separate ways, and you make a little reminder in your head to never invite us again to one of those parties.

The thing is, it’s not that we don’t want to. We’re not even angry at you for inviting us, we’re probably more angry at ourselves. We’ll think that we’re so antisocial, or that we’re weird, or that we don’t “jive” with most people- we hit ourselves the hardest because there was that “perfect” opportunity to “break out of our shell”, and we end up questioning ourselves on what we did wrong, how can we interact better next time, but at the same time being annoyed that these things are necessary and feel irritated at the saying “this is not even difficult.”

Perhaps what I’m trying to say here is a reason for me refusing that invite. Or me being a feeling a little bit hurt at that announcement. It’s just that it’s passed from the point of “could be” to “better not”, that I honestly think there is nothing wrong with you telling me stories of “how great that party was” and wouldn’t mind if you skipped the customary “wish you were there”.

What I want you to do is to understand: that I’m just doing both of us a favor, and I wouldn’t mind if you texted me at 1 am saying that “we’re still going strong” and inevitably ask us to keep you awake in class the next day. We know who you are. We know what you do. All that we ask is that you do the same.

So the next time you send out that post or text message, just remember…

What about us?

Slice of (my) Life

The Back Of Her Notebook

If you want to get an honest opinion about her, look at the back of her notebook. It doesn’t matter if it’s a textbook, cookbook, classbook, or notebook. As long as she can write in it. Pick it up (preferably when she’s not looking) and take a peek. Don’t ruffle through the front pages- look at the back.

It may seem bad, it may seem sketchy, or shady, or something that you feel that you shouldn’t do, but if you really, really want to, look anyway. Look at the back of her notebook, because it’s one of the places where she feels the safest, where she knows she can be honest, because no one in their right mind would look at the back of her notebook. Because people, as weird as they are, as short-sighted as they are- only focus on the front. What’s presented. The makeup she applies. The topics she integrates into her life. The notes that she writes down as she’s dozing off in class, trying to pay attention to that boring teacher droning on and on- because, subconsciously, she tends to write. To draw. To doodle. Anything to pass the time. And if there is one thing you can depend on in a girl, it’s to express herself- in any way she can.

Why do they do it? Why don’t guys do it, for that matter? Because guys are weird. We only tend to focus on what’s given to us, and sometimes (or okay, most of the time) we don’t pay attention. Except, really, when it’s too late to matter. But more on that some other time.

But why do girls do it? I can only guess that it came from the instinct we had when we were children to express ourselves, to be understood by the world around us in any way we could. That somewhere, between the childhoods both sexes had that they thought kissing was gross and the adolescence where they passed notes about people they liked in class while the teacher wasn’t looking- most guys outgrew doodling in their notebooks, while girls didn’t. And for the most part, those very same girls would continue to draw, doodle, write in the back of all their notebooks as they grew older.

What would you find at the back of her notebook? The back of her notebook is where a girl puts her heart: where she is honest, truthful and kind. In those pages you’ll find little scribbles of the name of the guys she likes with scribbled hearts all over it. You’ll find her dreams, her hopes, her frustrations expressed in long, winding, script that curls around on itself, all over the page and spilling from the margins. You can find her joys. Her sorrows. Her happiness. Her irritations, vexations, prayers, and wishes all in one page. You’ll find the cute drawings she makes of herself and her best friend, random highlighted phrases, circles that spiral down to an small point.

You may think of the back of the notebook as a representative of her- because it’s who she wants to be seen, who she is, and who she wants to be- all in those few pages that people don’t really look at. You’ll find the things most important to her, things that she wants from life. And if you’re lucky, you’ll find you in those very same pages, which can only mean that this girl- in the time that you’re not together, or subconsciously, while she’s nodding off in the middle of class – takes her pen, goes to those parts, and out of all the things on heaven or earth or that has ever existed and ever will exist…she wrote down you.

So if you want to know a little more about her, behind the face, behind the smile, behind the hands that caress your face when you’re feeling upset or hold your hand when you’re together, look at the back of her notebook.

You’ll be surprised at what you’ll find.